I know I've touch on this topic many times.

People would usually go, "hey! think about the people in 3rd word country. count yourself lucky already!"

Yes, of course I can imagine their situation being million times worst than mine.

But fact is, you only compare your life with the people in your world.

And 'world' being the what that surrounds you.

All the sufferings that the 3rd world people have to go through, it is unfair. But everyone else around them is in equal pain, be it their family or friends. In their eyes, the sufferings might be a normal thing, because everyone else is in the same plight.

Of course, that is only a presumption I'm making.

The point is, by common instincts, I would place myself among the people i came across instead of the misfortunate. Sadly, my world can only be this broad.

The so many things I am deprived of.

The unforgiving stares people give me as if I am a creature.

No explanations, no reasons, I just have to suck it up.

There were 4 passengers that sat beside me during my bus journey today.

3 of them shunned and sat slanted away from me.

I know it is perfectly understandable.

After all, my skin is in a disturbing condition.

But, can you imagine how that kind of rejection feels?

I wish to put up a sign "It is not contagious. I am also a human. Like you, I have emotions too. Please do not shun me."

Then I thought, nvm, things will get better. At least I will feel safe with my friends.

But hell no.

I know that I have no one to blame, but i really cannot take this any further.

I am on the brim, and I take every single word for it.

I can take jokes, but I can't take the repeated words for a period of time.

I have never felt this unwanted. Even with my family.

Deep down, I can feel the disappointment in my parents.

What have they done to deserve such a daughter that is not normal from all the others?

I am really tired.

As much as I always appear to have accepted it and stuff, I do mind, and I do mind a freaking lot.

I hope that someone can recognise that I have emotions too.