the topic, self esteem.

it doesn't really help to increase my esteem level, for it was injured ever since my skin problems dealt a deadly blow to it.

so anws, the tutor showed us a vid bout an armless guy thats able to play the piano good enough to enter a competition.

impressive, amazing, inspiring.

just for a moment.

qn from tutor, does it change your perspective bout life now?

there are people living on w/o four limbs, there are people who sleeps with dollar notes as their blanket.

a poly student can make it to news by enrolling into a reputable uni with perfect gpa as well.

thats one motivating story to the thousands of fresh graduates out there.

but how many can succeed?

there are millions of handicapped out there,

but how many can display such talent?

that accomplished guy,by the name of liu wei, deserves all my respect.

but my perspective remains unchanged,

life is just this unfair, its no crime to wallow in self pity.

one more thing, i still couldn't figure out the point bout treasuring.

i treasured, but that won't change the ending.

lost means lost.

i don't see how treasuring makes one less painful.

nuff said.

its almost 3 years old now.

i must say i haven't been taking good care of it.

not physically. not getting a proper anti-malware.

but heck, its still working! apart from the still tolerable lag of course.

however,i do admit that i get envious with the new laptops everybody else around me is using.

when their photoshop opens instantaneously upon a click, when they surf at the speed of light.

hmm,or maybe i just wanted something new to play with, to satisfy me materialistic wants D:<

but they aint cheap.

netbook sounds good.

more affordable,convenient and everything.

but that small screen arent gna go a long way with me.

notebook costs twice as much.

but its promising enough.

then again, theres the brands, speed and blablabla to consider.

and the configuring thing is another major turn off.

rawrrr, theres approx 1week left before school reopens,

and i really need to do something bout my indecisiveness.

less than a week since i lost my job,but it felt more.

always wanted to something constructive, like studying http (been ages since i last touched it), reading up chinese literature, learning to cook, or even drawing.

yet i'm spending my days rotting away in front of the tv/laptop, vacuuming up my brain, allowing it to stare at space.

i need to get some air,

its too empty over here.